Just Ranting

The past few weeks had both been filled with happiness and sadness.. recently there had been several positive cases from the forum and I was always reminded of my own when the ladies announced the success stories but of course there are also failed cases n the failed ones will have to prepare themselves for another cycle ....

A friend whom is preggy 5mths plus had lost her baby. She had mention that she could not feel the baby movement and was a bit worried. She had last seen her doctor 6weeks back and looking forward to her next appointment. But a couple of days ago, she started to bleed heavily and was admitted. Her doctor confirmed that the baby skull had hardened and the baby had died a couple of weeks back due to some genetics defects... she was induced into labour but I just cld not imagine what/how she must be feeling at that moment. She must be devastated. My heart goes out to her as her baby is ahead of mine by 2weeks ...

Upon hearing, I gotten a bit worried as I had not been able to feel the babies movement and my next appointment is 2weeks away .. praying hard that they are safe n healthy and me looking forward to my next scan ... I wld b alone as dearest is away on training ....

Week 17

Went for my doctor appt ytd but as the scanner was not clear, we cld not know the gender of the babies ... a cute thing happen to the elder twin - one hand was raised which looks like either waving to dear hubby or almost combing it hair .. even Doctor Yong was tickled by the baby reaction ...

Both the babies are active and growing well even though T1 is more active than T2. It is also T1 which did the wave lookalike .... I'm always looking forward to the scans as that is the only way of us monitoring their growth and latest development ...

Would be doing the detailed scan end of April and hopefully by then we cld know the gender of the babies :)

Just got new that the mother fair would be held on 3-6 June and since it coincide with SIL wedding, we decided to have a fast look and book whatever is necessary ...

Luckily dear hubby friend had the contact for the strollers so we would be getting the stroller from the wholesalers and hopefully we cld get the maclaren ... will still need to psycho dear hubby on getting the twins stroller .....

Week 16 of pregnancy

Wah, it has been a long time since my last post :)

2010 has been a joyous start for both DH and myself .. since 30 Dec 2009 (week 4 of pregnancy) after getting the positive result, we had been on cloud 9 ..... DH has been lavishing endless attention and love to the babies and myself ... I started the pregnancy well but MS appear at week 6 of pregnancy ...I was feeling nauseu in the morning and was feeling tired and lethargic all the way .. it was a struggle waking up every morning to come to work, luckily with DH motivation, I hang in there and ...

Week 6 scan shows 2 sacs and 2 heartbeats .. i was over the moon as did not expect to be having twins ... the parents was informed and they was happy for us... Mother was cool about it but Mak was constanly worried about the babies .... Bth Abah n Bapak was hapy but Bapak was constantly reminding me to be extra carefull and take things slow :)

I was hospitalised for observation at week 9 as my right ovaries was still swollen and the younger twin was on top of my ovary... it all started on the night b4, the cramps was horrendous and the next morning as I cld not take it any longer, I pluck up the courage to go to the hospital ... Doctor Yong was on delivery and the wait time for her was terrible .. the scan show the swollen ovary and she requested me to stay for observation and I was admitted to Ward 52 (maternity ward) .. DH was given half day and was commuting btw hospital and work to be with me ... only Mak was informed and she was worried for us .. I was crying as Doctor Yong had mention that if the pain did not subside, she would have to operate me to find the actual cause and the risk of losing the babies was high.. I was constantly talking to them to help me and was praying hard the pain wld subside and thankfully it did :) I was discharge after a night at the hospital but Doctor Yong had assured me if the pain come again then she wld have to perform emergency operation on me .... was on HL for 10days and really took tons and tons of rest :)

The days passed slowly and I reached trimester 2 ... the nauseu has reduced drastically and I cld eat more .. I had only gain 1kg so far and despite being 4mths preggy, my stomach does not show much ...

We went to the baby fair last saturday and bought some stuffs ... I bought the bottles steriliser and the automatic/manual breast pump ...we had also order the baby cot and playpen for the babies .. we wld only be getting the remaining stuffs during the June mother fair as hopefully by then we wld know the gender of the babies :)

We had also tailor the customised outfits for Achumon wedding and we did some furniture shopping there too ...

Another doctor visit this coming Monday and hopefully we cld have some signs of the gender of the babies :)

Hmmmmmm

AF has reported after playing hide & seed for 46 days ... It came without any signs ... I was not dissapointed as I had kept my hopes and emotions in check...

BFP for Aries. I'm so happy for her :) She had also taught me on the avocado and umf honey and had started my avocado juice last sat. I dun really like the taste but luckily the guy add sum brown sugar so can taste a bit of the brown sugar .... As for the honey, I'm still looking around and will try my luck @ JP2 later on ....

Looking forward to the gathering among the ladies and updating each other on my updates :)

Update.....

I met Doc Yong today as a follow up of my case. All she could say was the embroyos does not stick to my womb resulting the failed cycle. She was asking how am I coping and when she hugged me, I actually cried and relieved that I has shared my feelings with her. She had mentioned that she would like me to go thru the long protocol when I'm ready to start my next cycle and actually I cld already start and she understands when I say that I wld like to take a break and do it in Nov/Dec. She also request that I go for a blood test to find out whether additional hormones growth in needed? I oblige and has taken the test today....

Today is already Day 45 and I am still waiting for AF to report or am I ?????? I had decided not to test so soon as the nurses had mentioned tt AF would go haywire after a failed cycle... so hear I am still taking things slowly and if AF still does not report till 26 July then I wld take the preggy test .... Keeping my hopes in check and hopes for the best :)

Dear hubby birthday falls on 27 July and he has applied for leave so that we cld spent time together ..... I wld be taking half day on 27 and full day leave on 28 July. He deserved the break as he has been working tirelessly this couple of days with the north star exercise or covering other troops duty :)

Positive Thinking Poems

Charmed Words

There is a reason for things
What will be will be
The future isn't for us to see
Believe that your dreams will come true
In time they should
Don't stressJust feel that someday
You will find those things
Which have been in your dreams
Believe that everything is possible
That all problems are solvable
And life is so livable
Anything can happen
If you want it to
Put your heart towards
This love of your life
Everything will be alright.

Just Posting......

It's been a while since I last blog in here ... so here's the latest about me ...

I'm currently hapi with a new toy (DH bought me a Dell Mini Inspiron 10V) N been bz meddling with it ....

I'm also currently now eating Conceive Well Gold from Blacmores as recommended by dreamgalore N hopefully my cycle will be back to normal soon :) We are also trying naturally now :)

Currently, Sierra & Ros are in 2WW and wishing them BFP BFP BFP while Jas had ET this morning and Aries would be doing her ER this coming monday ... Nicole n Greenie had a BFN and I really understand what they are gg thru now ...

Develyn is still MS with the twins and hopefully she wld get thru it soon :)