Slowly coming out from it!!!!!

I'm proud to say that I'm slowing coming out from the failed cycle.... i dun cry for the last week and had started to exercise .... looking forward to seeing my doctor in July to find out the actual cause for the failure and the next step to take ..... I had made up my mind to try again in Nov/Dec but in the meanwhile I wld be trying naturally ....

Some of the sista had positive results while others negative but those with negative wld be trying again once they are ready like me :)

Keeping everyone in my prayers to have the strength in facing the obstacles of trying to conceive .....

Positive Poem from Another Sister Blogger

Don’t Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow–
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor’s cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out–
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit–
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.
- Author unknown

Moving On With Life

I'm thankful n grateful for all that God has been given to me ......

I'm slowly picking myself up and facing reality as it stares at me .... nothing is gg to be changed... the result is confirmed and I had accepted it .....

Planning slowly with DH on the next step and both of us had decided to take a break and allowed my body to recuperate and try naturally .... I'm thankful and glad that DH had been wiv me in the darkest days of my life and guiding me through slowly filled with endless love and support ...... I still do cry whenever I think about it but I'm sure God had other plans for us ..... trying my best to stay happy nowadays and try often not to think about it ... luckily i'm back @ werk n surprisingly it keeps me gg .....

Evelyn had asked me to 'tio' my body with Doctor Zou herbs and will discuss with DH about it ... had mention to DH too about GNC prenatal pills and all he says was 'finished up all the other pills and we will talk about it again later"...heheheh

Well the weekend is here and we had the weekend fully planned ..... Sat wld be karoake session and movies watching and Sun wld be meant for household chores and gathering with old friends .... can'n wait for work to end and for classes to end be4 I cld spent some time with DH .....

Chiao

It's negative and I was devastated ....

I left home yesterday feeling nervous and head for SGH with feeling of anxiety and hope .... had my blood test done and even met my doctor concerning my urine tract problem ... she as usual is anxious for me and hoping for the best for me ....

Reached home and waited and waited for the call and finally @ 1.58pm, Nurse Tan called me to inform that it was negative ... I was devastated and felt so lonely as Abg was working .... I cried and cried and decide that I shld not be @ home alone so I decide to attend the class test ... i attend the test with puffy eyes and luckily for me no one ask about it .....

I started crying the moment I reach home again and constantly asked myself what went wrong ... was it because I was walking too much or I was careless sumhow but I dun seems to find the answers ... mayb God had other plans for me as the saying goes mayb there is other blessings waiting for me .....

Finally, I cld cry to the fullest with dear hubby just now and he had assured me to try again once I'm ready ... I know I would take time to recover but eventually I would .... would have to c my doctor to decide on the next step and since I do not have any storage embroyos, I wld have to start fresh the next cycle once I'm ready... as for the meantime, I wld focus on building up myself and prepare myself for the next cycle ......

Egg Collection

I had my egg collection done on Vesak Day with DH accompanying me throughout the procedure ... DH looks kinda cute in the hospital attire and trying his best to cheer me up as he knows that Im feeling scare :)

A total of 15 follicles were retrieved and thankfully 6 were fertilised with 2 of grade 2 and 4 of grade 3 .... SGH has been updating me the status on a daily basis and I thanks all the doctors and nurses for all their advices and guidance throughout the journey ....

Not forgetting also all my IVF friends built over the motherhood forum for the endless advices and guidances :)

Tomorrow would be my ET and hopefully will get BFP and the end of it .... trying my best not to set my hopes too high too :)

2nd Injection - Centrotide

Had my 2nd injection ytd morning .... the feeling of ant bite and a little itchiness lingers for a while ..... had another 2 days of GonalF and the scanning tomorrow will decide when my ER will be ...hopefully it will happen over the weekend and DH is around looking after me .... pampered u might say but had gotten use to it already :)

Had book a slot for accupunture on thur nite in case the ER falls on friday .... Doc Zou would be away in China so clinic would be covered by Doc Wong :) Let's c whether is he as gentle as Doc Zou :)

Had my 2nd injection this morning and now having a slight headache and praying hard tt it will go away soon ......

Having my lunch now :)

Start of Injection

I had started my 1st shot ytd of 150ml of GonalF ....the injection was like an ant bite but the after effect is terrible .... been having headache since ytd and praying hard tt it will go off soon :)

I started my day with eating 2 egg whites and drinking AnMum milk followed by a bottle of chicken essence.... had also been snacking on 3 pieces of Brazil nut ....

Some of the side effects of GonalF:
- Headaches and breast tenderness
- Nausea/Vomitting - Abdominal distension & discomfort
- Ovarian cyst
- Injection site reaction: pain, redness, bruising, swelling & irritation

Doc Yong is also estimating my ER to be either 11-12 May 09.

Trying my best to keep my cool and not to be too scared about the whole journey ....hoping for the best and able to have the best b'dae gift I had wished for all the years :)